October 2, 2013

We have had a lot of success this week. It seems that every transfer we just fry and grill in the oven of the sun and look for people who might just give us one chance to let us say a word about our message. But, when the sun goes down, that is when we get our real appointments in. We are having a good time teaching our investigators who seem to care! Anyways, as of right now I have just been tired.. more tired than I can ever remember. Really stressed out too, I have big pimples now! haha It is just a lot of pressure on me as a trainer and leading an area. My companion has been really slow at progressing and he would rather sit quietly than give it his all in lessons. It is kind of awkward when I give him a chance to do something and he just... stares at me refusing to do anything. I have really gained a lot of patience this past 6 weeks and I am expecting to gain even more the next 6. Anyways, I learned something about myself and maybe something that can help others. I have really been upset with my companion... we have not been getting along. It finally got to the point where we got into ... a bigger argument. The rest of the day... the spirit was not felt, and I feel like the Lord made sure I did not enter any homes with the attitude we both had. As we walked for a couple hours getting punted from our appointments, the spirit just nagged me. It seemed I didn't want to listen, I knew what he wanted me to do. By the time we got home, I felt miserable, and I knew that I had to humble myself. I built up my courage and me and my comp had a short talk. I started with the most heart felt apology I could muster. It felt like the right thing and I know that is what the spirit was telling me ... I just chose to ignore it. As I apologized, I think his heart was softened too. We had generally gotten along before, but I think both of us had some humbling to do. I see today, many members who have been offended. I clearly saw today the blessing and help of God withdrawn from my work. How can that affect our lives today? We can choose to be offended, but I know that if we just humble ourselves the Lord will provide. I am trying everyday to love my companion, and I see how it can make a big difference in our lives. I invite everyone to be as Christ and let go of hard feelings, forgive others and welcome back blessings that we could really use in our lives. I know that God loves us and he would want us to love each other. I really learned a lot about myself and how to better myself this week in this sense. I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.